I guess what I’m trying to say is that for my submission to have value, I needed to ascribe value to myself. I needed to make myself worthy of a woman who was dominant. If I had asked my wife to dominate me while I treated her like a domestic servant, and while I treated myself as a slackass who didn’t care about himself or his life, it would have been somehow meaningless. In short, I had to build myself up in order to let someone take me down.
One thing that most women do not realize is that men can and do make excellent servants. It does take a certain amount of training, and discipline. However, for the women who has the patience, there are rewards.
It is this feeling, a feeling of complete and utter submission, of helplessness, of my submission before this most beautiful and feminine of women, that is my wife, that I crave so much in everyday life. It is the reason why I think that I want so much to submit to her at all times, to be teased and denied by her, to feel that she is in control and wants to be in control of me.
For me Cuckolding has absolutely nothing to do with anyone but the Domme and sub. The third person is strictly a tool, just like a chastity belt or rope is a tool. It is an object the Domme uses to help the submissive become more submissive to her.